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To all my regular blogger friends out there who was able to read the last entries I've posted just before I had to cut back on writing, I'm sure you guys could remember that I was simply preparing for my NCLEX-RN examination.
I took it last December 2, and I reviewed for the said exam for 3 whole months. I wanted to write about the experience right after I finished it, but I decided to wait for the results first so that this entry could have an ending.
So here goes... I didn't drive my car going to Makati anymore since it's very hard to park in that area. I also didn't want to be worried about anything else since I'm already a wreck from the anxiety. My dad gave me a ride to the testing site instead. I had to wake up really early because he had to be at his office in Quezon City by 8am. I couldn't sleep the night before coz I was so nervous so I really just had 4 hours of sleep. My exam wasn't until 9 am, and I got there around 7:30. The building didn't have a lounge for visitors so exam takers had to wait just outside, looking like trembling defenseless shrimps whose about to be cooked! I was pretty quiet for a change. I wanted to talk to the other girls around me who I think would be taking the exam as well but no one seemed interested in making conversations. Everyone looked like they all had a big stick shoved right up their a**es. But I still managed to wish some of them luck. Finally, at about 8:30, we were told to fall in line and were allowed admission to the testing area one by one. The place plus the staff seemed really tense. It felt like I was in a scary Big Brother House. There were literally camera everywhere.
After getting settled, the proctor would be escorting you to your seat. And then from there, it's every man for himself. Before I started answering the questions, I whispered a short prayer and took a few deep breaths. The first 10 questions were easy, and then after a while, it got harder and harder... I expected to finish the exam after question 75. But then, the test didn't stopped. I got so worried already because our lecturers from RA Gapuz told us that a big percentage of examiners who finished the test at question 75 has a greater possibilty of passing the exam. I was at the edge of my seat and thought that maybe mine would end after 100, but then I reached 120, 150, 180, 200, and finally 251. As I was answering each question, I felt like my brain was about to explode. That was the first time I ever felt like I was mentally abused. haha! After telling the proctor that I'm done, I headed back to the lockers to retrieve my things. I think there were just three of us left in the room. I left the building at 2pm.
As soon as I had the comfort of talking to someone about it, I unconsciously broke down in tears because of the negative thoughts and realization that I think I could've done better. After the whole experience, I had a chance to relax and unwind. I kept distracting myself with useless activities. I didn't want to entertain the agony of waiting.
I expected to get my results before the new year, but nothing came. Maybe it was because of the holidays, some mails were caught in delay because of the season. Then on a hot Monday, January 11 2010 to be exact, a loud knock on our gate woke me up. It was the mailman, I had a strong feeling that he was about to deliver the letter from the Board of Nursing. As I received the envelope, I saw my name on the front. I was shaking and quickly went inside the living room. I took a few deep breaths and decided to open the mail immediately... It said, I passed!!!
It was such a relief! All the studying and the staying home paid off. I was so excited to tell my parents so I called them right away.
Anyways, I wrote this so that I could inspire some of you whose about to take the exam as well. I hope this helped with some of your questions. The best advise I could give you is just always have faith on yourself and the Lord...